Highs and lows of this month:
Well the months not over yet… One high is that Jack (my boyfriend) and I and one of our best friends went to Universal in Orlando for a week. Other than that high, I mean Jack and I have just been having so much fun together. Lows are that I’ve been stressing out about the fact that I have so much shit to buy for university and that my mom is moving out and that we need to find a home for our cat and that my entire life is about to change….
“Develop a healthy relationship with food. If you’re hungry, eat. If you’re full, don’t eat. Eat vegetables to be good to your body, but eat ice cream to be good to your soul.
Take pictures of yourself frequently. Chronicle your life. Selfies are completely underrated. Even if the pictures are unflattering, keep them anyway. There will always be mountains and cities and buildings, but you will never look the same way as you did in that one moment in time.
Your worth does not depend on how desirable someone finds you. Spend less time in front of the mirror and more time with people who make you feel beautiful.
Close doors. Don’t hold onto things that no longer brings you happiness and do not help you grow as a person. It is okay to walk away from toxic relationships. You are not weak for letting go.
Forgive yourself. We all have something in our pasts that we are ashamed of, but they only weigh us down if we allow them to. Make amends with the old you and work every day to become the person that you’ve always wanted to be.”
Why is it easier to be a child rather than an adult?
I wrote out this huge thing about how being a child and being an adult are both hard. But I thought I should keep it more simple. Life is crazy fucking hard, for everyone. I would say that maybe if you’re a baby or little kid growing up in a nice and caring family, then life isn’t too hard for you since you don’t have many worries. But everyone once they start growing up is going to have stress, pressure, and problems. There’s no way to escape them. Life is hard and unfair. But the people you love and those amazing happy moments can make all that stress worth it.
“I promise to love you:
at 6am when you’re waking to go to work, to school, or whatever road life takes you on, and when you didn’t sleep well, your hair is a mess, and your eyes are sleepy.
at 8am when we say goodbye for the day and you’re rushing out the door with a cup of tea and your car keys in the other hand.
at 5pm when you’re exhausted from the day and people have worn you out and you feel like crying, and falling asleep and escaping from everything. I will kiss your forehead, and wrap myself in your arms.
at 10pm when you’re heading to bed, even though you won’t sleep for hours. Especially when we become a human knot wrapped up in sheets and kisses.
at 3am when loneliness and sadness do not destroy you, but consume you and when you weep without an explanation, I’ll kiss your lips softly and tell you you’re the absolute best and that things will be better soon
I will love you when you grow old, and I will love you after that. I will love you if I’m no longer here. I will love you, I will love you, and I will love you.”